I think that I may never see, a tree as wonderful as me

Well, that just sounds crazy. I was trying to recall that old line that I heard..somewhere. Does anyone have a clue of what I'm talking about? I don't. ;)
I guess poetry is trying to creep back into my life. I found a few poems the other day that I had written in Creative Writing, and they were suprisingly decent. Then, in a whirlwind of raw emotion and craziness, last night I wrote three. One is readable, barely, the other two, are..well, just raw emotions, one ending with the single word, "Why?" I felt like a teenager again! (ha!) On another subject, I was given a beautiful compliment today, relayed to me by a friend (made by her mother.) She said that after seeing me the other day I looked happier and my inner beauty was showing through, this being since I got saved. That made me feel so good, and also confused! You know, when someone says something like that, when someone views you in a Completely different way than you view yourself, you have to take a step back and look at yourself and think, "Have I been wrong all this time? What have I been percieving wrong and how?" Lately I've looked at myself and my mood swings and thought, "boy have I regressed" and then someone else looks at me and thinks I've progressed in a wonderful way!! Its something to think about, definitely. To pray about...I sometimes feel as if there is this barrier when I try to pray, but I'm sure I'm the one creating it. Its like I can't get out what I really need to say. Sometimes I just try to pray in my head and let my emotions and what I really feel come to the forefront and try to communicate those to God. I'm so out of focus though...Anyway!! Maybe poetry would be of some help to me. Maybe I can write my prayers out and then say them, sing them, just so long as they get across. I sure felt exhausted last night after I wrote those three. I mean I was drained!! I just had to go to bed! I know it sounds weird :) All of this probably does, but that's what a blog's for, right? To tell everyone that my emotions exhaust me! :)