Ruby Tuesday

I was doing a little reading this morning, reading a book written by two Christian men on depression. Its so interesting. It's good to know that I don't have to feel guilty for feeling the way I do. The way they put it, being on antidepressent medication is just a physical need that some of us have. They explained that God made our physical bodies with certain needs, like when we are hungry we drink, when we're hungry we must eat, and sometimes its just "in us" (depression), and we need help from medication. I didn't put that well at all, but you get my drift. Having faith and praying, is, of course, very important, but God gave us the sense to know when we need outside help. He gave doctors and pyschologists their skills for a reason. Its so strange, but you get comfortable in these feelings and then when someone tries to jolt you out of them (a counselor, for instance) it feels alien, almost. It seems uncomfortable and different. I can't really explain it. You know you want to feel differently, but you don't know how, and you're almost scared to try, scared to step out of your comfort zone. I was also relieved to read in this book that asking someone to "snap out of it" (depression) is absurd. They describe it as a disease, something that can't be helped, and it can't really. I mean, there are things you can do to improve your life, like exercise, sleeping better, and eating healthier, but when you are depressed, you usually don't have the motivation to carry those things out! I've spent so much time trying to figure out the reason for my feelings. But like they said, sometimes its just "in you". The great thing is that there is always hope, though. There is always a light at the end of the tunnel. Some of us just need a little push (or a shove, rather), in the right direction.